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Apr. 19th, 2030

Tieria Erde

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Ciara Celine. 1990. California. Vocational nurse. Likes to plan trips when time & money permits. Reads leisurely. Loves to eat. Writes randomly. Somewhat into video games. Loves binge watching on Netflix and Hulu. Random.

I am looking for friendly people who are open-minded, random, and knows how to live with differences.

Comment if you would like to be friends.

I have a habit of deleting journals that has been inactive for 6 months or more unless a hiatus is stated.

Feb. 21st, 2017

Wonder Woman

Life thus far..

Hiatus would have been much longer, but I'm slowly catching up on entries once again. It is hard to separate from Livejournal.

I'm doing just OK in school. Getting straight A's is impossible when I am also trying to survive in my daily life. And that's OK. I just want to finish. I took a break from Livejournal thinking that I can do some time management, but that failed terribly. Other issues keeps on coming. I feel like my life is plagued by unforeseen circumstances that I am never ready for.

I can go on, but at the end of the day, I've reflected about how unhealthy it is to be super selfless.

This is what I plan to do about it:
- Become more assertive
-Tell the truth
- Declutter (this one is in the works. This one will just relieve my stress, haha.

Same in platonic and romantic relationships too. I am in such a delicate year or two in my life when my career is more important right now. I know my capacity in terms of how much I can give or sacrifice. I'm not one to ask: what can this person do for me in return?

And then one day, I did.

It is sometimes important to reflect about the people we become "selfless" for. Are they worth the sacrifices? Are they worth the ache?

Random thought.

When it comes to change all I can is: Embrace change -- embrace the change even if it is suddenly forced upon you. Embrace change for the good. Embrace change even if it brings drawbacks. Embrace change.

At the end of the day, I just need to suck it up and keep moving forward.
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Feb. 3rd, 2017

Wonder Woman

Bare with me

School started and it is kicking my ass, haha. Im trying to work on time management. So please be patient with me and...., no unfriending me!

Thank you. Hugs!

Jan. 10th, 2017

Wonder Woman

Quote from Barack Obama's farewell address

"But laws alone won't be enough.

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Dec. 29th, 2016

Wonder Woman

Happy birthday to me

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Nov. 18th, 2016

Wonder Woman

Random thought

Cutting my relatives out of my life has been one of the most difficult things I've ever done in my life. Its been years, but the upcoming holidays just reminded me of that moment.

It's past 1AM and I really felt like venting but feel too worn out from school and work. But I'll leave this here. Maybe some of you can make me feel better just by being able to relate.

I'm glad we can at least choose our friends.

Nov. 9th, 2016

Wonder Woman

Another random note

Sending some love to my friends all over the world. Or any of you who I interact with. Some of us came from different backgrounds but I appreciate the acceptance that we have for one another. I hope you feel the same.

Nov. 2nd, 2016

Wonder Woman

Releasing some stress out

I might as well share my thoughts about Livejournal's 'heart' or 'like' feature.

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To simply put it.. I just don't want Livejournal to feel like Facebook. That's all. Nothing else against it.

I've been so busy that I've literally set notifications for myself just to remind myself to go to class (especially on days I'm scheduled to work). Work is going well, but I'm nervous for my floor orientation at the sub-acute unit. I need to believe in myself. Sometimes I would think that I don't know something but it turns out that I know more than I expected.

Again, I need to believe in myself.

If I was a nursing care plan, one of the interventions I have for my 'self improvement diagnosis' is to not quit halfway on what I already started.

I will not go through another loop of quitting anymore.

Oct. 22nd, 2016

Wonder Woman

Random Thoughts

There are some days when I feel most motivated, but there are also days when I feel unmotivated to the point of just wanting to give up on a personal goal. (The phase of feeling unmotivated often feel so much more longer for me)

I decided to incorporate a hobby that I love the most -- which is to write a letter (to somebody). In this situation, that somebody will be myself. Even as a diary keeper for most of my life, I rarely consider writing directly to myself since writing on a journal, for me at least, is just like venting to an imaginary friend (for the most part).

I want to write a letter to myself during a moment when I feel the most motivated so when I'm on the verge of giving up (again), I can remind myself of this feeling. It might save time from dwelling, from overthinking, and from making a decision that will make me struggle even more.

I've also learned by experience that I can write to form really nice thoughts on a piece of paper.. right at the moment the feeling happens.

Writing is therapy. 

Sep. 6th, 2016

Wonder Woman

More Than A Decade Later - I'm Finally Posting My First Livejournal Public Entry

All I can do, if I feel this way, is trust that somewhere in the universe, there's a you that feels the same. - Iain Thomas
Something I just want to share.

I grew up being such a nerdy introvert. I read a lot, played video games, watched cartoons, and my closest friends were my penpal friends. I was just usually indoors.

If I can highlight something during my adolescence, Livejournal played a huge role. I basically hid on this blogging platform-- I vented about my day-to-day, my goals, crushes, the awful realities of middle school and highschool etc. I've met a lot of my pen pals growing up because of Livejournal. I've made a lot of friends on this site. I still prefer being mostly private here. I love sharing my thoughts here. I love that I've met other bloggers here who shared the same sentiment. It is so comforting.

The friends and encouragement I've received here also became the reason why I ended up becoming more open to the 'outside', haha. I suppose that was me trying to 'grow up' and becoming more sociable. I will always be grateful about that. There was a point in my life when I had to stop blogging for awhile and I stopped writing letters. This was when 'real life' events were happening: first job, vocational nursing school, my father's retirement, lost friends, etc were all happening at the same time. Somehow, I found a way to come back and recorded thoughts and feelings of those moments. At the end of every day, it was Livejournal who understood.

There was a reason why I became so secretive, but I've asked myself how long will I be this way? I tried to blog publicly on other platforms but I end up changing the privacy settings from 'public' to 'private' and came back to Livejournal. Recently, I've decided to make it semi-private. I think I will stick to Livejournal for awhile.

It is nice to have something to look back on. It feels like reading old letters that I've written to myself. I remember keeping a diary when I was 7 and a few more up until highschool. I've recorded a lot of my painful experiences and moments when I tried to figure myself out. I've kept journals, continuously started on more journals. I don't recall ever finishing a journal. It doesn't really matter where I wrote my thoughts, but there was a satisfying feeling that I looked for. It was my way of meditating-- writing the first thoughts that came into my mind without stopping. Rereading what I wrote became a way of self-reflecting. (I still meditate though-- the proper way, haha).

I wouldn't be as mentally stable as I am now without Livejournal. Livejournal was my outlet and gave me the same effect when I would express my self on paper. I learned over time that.. for me, to be emotionally strong is to be able to accept and feel pain. It doesn't mean being tough, but I became resilient. Self-acceptance, honesty to one self, and not remaining idle when shit happens.

A decade of blogging experience shaped my way of thinking just by recording my thoughts in a form of Livejournal entries.

I am not good at a lot of things nor am I passionate about many things, but I do want diversity in my life, authentic human connection, and appreciating being alive.


Cheers to another decade, more chapters of my life to record or share, and more connections to be made by reading entries.

Thank you, Livejournal.